A Deep Resting Place

A Deep Resting Place

by | | Awakening, Presence, Self Realisation

I’ve found a deep resting place inside.
 
From here, I can hold presence in the face of fear and peace in the face of pain.
 
From here, I remain untouched.
 
 
 
Does this mean I’m free of patterning?
 
Does it mean I no longer fear? 
 
Absolutely not.
 
It means I’m free of the story.
 
It means I’m no longer bound.
 
 
 
In my heart, I know nothing can go wrong.
 
In truth, I know nothing is wrong!
 
This inner freedom is infectious.
 
The more I taste it, the more I embrace it, and the more I embrace it the more it grows.

 

 
 
What this has taken (and continues to take)
 
is my TOTAL commitment
 
and COMPLETE responsibility.
 
Indeed, this response-ability is the thread that’s unravelling me home.
 
 
 
When you stand in this willingness to take responsibility,
 
there’s nothing you can’t resolve,
 
and there’s nothing you can’t dissolve.
 
It reveals a freedom that absorbs everything into itself,
 
until nothing
 
but Self
 
remains.
 
 
 
This freedom can’t be taken and it can’t be lost.
 
It’s always here,
 
just waiting,
 
for you to choose to remember
 
that which you forgot.
END THE SEEKING: Be Here Now

END THE SEEKING: Be Here Now

by | | Awakening, Presence, Self Realisation

When we prioritise presence, we find our true home. No longer clinging to the past or reaching for the future we inhabit this moment fully, embodied and alive, but when we emphasise the future or dwell on the past, when we fixate on thought or fuse with emotion, we lose this connection. We feel this loss in our bodies and our hearts and it shows up in our lives – through our relationships, our circumstances, and our work. This loss is a loss of contact with that which is most natural – our Essential Nature – the fullness that animates each and every form. 

This loss reverberates through our psyche and our soma and perpetuates itself when we imagine that the closing of this gap is a journey to be made. We search our memory banks for those moments we felt connected and desperately try to re-create this experience of “presence”. We project it into the future and imagine how great life will be when we finally arrive at this state called “presence”, and we set off on an endless journey to find this thing called “presence” – a journey that only perpetuates the illusion that presence is not present! Meanwhile, presence awaits …

Presence is not to be found in some future moment because presence is Who You Are – right Here, right Now. So who is this one who popped out of presence? Who is this one who got lost?! So glad you asked 😉


The false identity arises out of a misunderstanding – the misperception that you are separate from Source – that you are a person, an object, a body, “an isolated fragment”. This misunderstanding causes you to fixate your attention on form, on phenomena, since that’s where you find some sense of self. Whether that phenomena be thought, emotion, a person, place, or device (!), attention is no longer rooted in its formless essence. Your attention is merged with (and therefore you are identified with) the objects in your awareness. This fracturing of attention is the fragmentation of the self – the web of identity in which you find your attention caught.

Attention is simply focused awareness, so it’s not so much that you leave your Self, but more that your attention strays from its Source, which creates the illusory appearance of separation and disconnection.

When you believe and feel that you are separate from Source, your attention is easily captivated (distracted and consumed) by objects, because there’s this deep sense of something missing. You are missing your own subjectivity. This feeling of incompleteness is the core wound of the “someone” – of the false sense of self. This feeling of “not enough” births all kinds of seeking. I demand love from others while failing to love myself. I feel unworthy and try to fix that by pursuing outside approval. I get angry and then feel ashamed for expressing my rage. Each wound comes with a host of corresponding strategies that seek to fix, soothe, control, or suppress it.

When the attention is caught in these movements, it can be tricky to disentangle. Often these movements consist of multiple aspects of the identity all working with and against each other to ensure the survival and wellbeing of the organism. We manage to unmerge from one aspect but find ourselves immediately caught in another. We unmerge from being angry and then collapse into shame for losing our temper. We unmerge from worry and then instantly fuse with the one who desperately wants to fix it. Our attention is caught on the merry-go-round of identity – the web of the false sense of self.

Extricating attention from this psychic web is vital and foundational and unveils the presence that never left. Unmerging attention from these aspects of the identity is the revelation of our true nature, as the open space that the experience of separation arises in. That said, we need to be aware that the identity will inevitably turn this into another project, because the identity believes that to unmerge and disidentify is a journey that is made through time and space, when in fact this movement of attention is actually a stopping and not a doing. It’s a stepping outside of the matrix of identity into our timeless essence. The attention is not so much moving as it is relaxing its hold (on form). It’s a stopping rather than a forging forward, and it’s this stopping that dissolves the experience of separation and thus ends seeking.

It’s this stopping which reveals YOU as you always are – untouched and unbroken, whole and complete.

THE GREAT HOMECOMING: unwinding the story

THE GREAT HOMECOMING: unwinding the story

by | | Awakening, Self Realisation

When we say Yes to our own unravelling (over and above any personal hopes and dreams) we are calling for the rewinding and unwinding of our personal story.

The Ground of Being is the Source from which all manifestation arises. Like a diamond it’s multi-faceted and like a sphere it’s eternal. Each spark of consciousness arises from this radiant light as a unique expression and therein lies the possibility of Self-forgetfulness. Inherent within creation is the potential to become so captivated by form that the formless is forgotten. This core misperception is a wound in and of itself because there’s nothing more painful than losing sight of All That Is; and so begins the story of separation. The beauty of this is that only through perceived disconnection can we experience the Great Homecoming. Only through forgetfulness can we remember Who We Truly Are.

Every expression is completely divine and utterly unique. However, in the state of Self-forgetfulness this expression becomes less and less natural and more and more conditioned. The Great Expanse dreams itself into limitation and contraction. In this loss of contact (with Source) a distortion field is created. Over time and over our life-time(s) these layers accumulate until we’re so far out in the matrix of our own making that our very Being is eclipsed by the story we’ve woven.

Although the stories are diverse, they’re all born of this belief in separation. The Great Homecoming is the unwinding of this story, which manifests as a retracing of our steps as we revisit every misunderstanding until no more fear remains. Everything that was ever exiled, forgotten or cast into shadow will be met, acknowledged and seen to be what it truly is. Like Hansel and Gretel following the breadcrumbs, it’s the Golden Thread of our life-story that leads us home.

Our willingness to pull that one loose thread on a weave we’ve been carefully crafting is equal to our willingness to let go of our personal story. As we allow the whole thing to unravel before our eyes, our landing back in Being returns us to the very place where we left off, the exact point where only our face can meet the Ground. It’s the reunion with our distinct expression – as a unique manifestation of Source – that is the not oft talked of gift of Coming Home. No other Soul will ever touch this place from where you emerged and from where you’ll re-emerge as the living embodiment of Truth in Form. This re-emergence requires your willingness to lose the person you believe yourself to be because that individual is a dream, and in your willingness to once again merge with Source, you reclaim your True Sovereignty as Soul.

In the play of manifestation, there never has nor ever will be a snowflake such as You.